Veil of Fear

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the first day i saw you
i feared
i am not good enough for you

the first day we spoke
i feared
i would turn into a fool

the day i said “i love you”
i feared
you would say no

the day you went out of town
i feared
i would go mental

the day we fought
i feared
we would never talk

the day we slept alone
i feared
i would sleep alone for the rest of my life

the day i saw you with another man
i feared
i am not a better man

the day we parted ways
i feared
i would never live again

days turned into weeks
weeks turned into months
the days i feared i would never live again
i forgot how to live

standing before the mirror
watching the scars slowly disappear
the days i feared
fear would took control of my life
slowly faded away into memory

stepping outside into this world once again
walking with a new found energy
i find you looking at me
and i fear
that you might be letting fear take control

walking towards you
i lean closer and whisper
“fear not; don’t fear what happened (the past);
rip out the mask that you are wearing;
come out from behind the veil of fear;
take my hand and  walk with me;
trust me, i am there for you;
believe me ‘I Love You’;”

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note: ‘you’ actually represents 2 different people. the first 25 lines represents a different person and the last 10 lines represents another “new” person :). In the first scenario, i feared. In the second one, after i have overcome my fear, i find her (this new person) “engulfed” in the same fear.

Some nice quotes on fear:

Japenese proverb
Fear is only as deep as the mind allows.

Dostoyevsky
Taking a new step, uttering a new word, is what people fear most.

Marilyn Manson
One hates what one fears.

Bertrand Russell
To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

David Seabury
Fear of self is the greatest of all terrors, the deepest of all dread, the commonest of all mistakes. From it grows failure. Because of it, life is a mockery. Out of it comes despair.

Louis E. Boone
Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.

Anonymous
Fear is the prison of the heart.